How are you, noisy?
Oh you know, ****ing horrible. Today is supposedly my birthday, but all it really is is a reminder that I've failed at every single thing I've attempted to do in the past 8 years. Zero improvements, zero gains, I couldn't even make enough money to get a car in all that time. I'm gonna be 40 soon and I have nothing and have done nothing.
So today, a terrible reminder. Tomorrow, I'll probably be numb to it again.
But it seems some of you are having it much worse. Life is not always what it should be.
Aaaaaaa, so its today?!
Happy Birthday Noisy!!!!!
Listen, we've all seen your posts where shared your feeling lately - life isn't always great, fair or all amazing. I only say it based on my experience and observations, but nothing really is easy. When we are children, parents and everyone around us tell us its gonna be great, you can be anyone you want etc. Personally I think that's all BS. Life is really hard for almost everyone, in general. Things may be hard for a day, week, year or even longer period, we will only have moments of happiness, moments were things gonna go smoothly and we will feel better. But most of the time it isn't easy, constant struggle. People not always tell truth, I noticed that almost everybody that I know tell lies, they pretend that they are doing great, are successful, always busy but having great time. They say it in person, show it in social media, but truth be told, they aren't always like that. For last 20 years I learnt how to read all those signs and see through all that bs. It is very disappointing, but once you notice it, you will understand that its not only you are having trouble achieving things in your life, but everyone is - nowadays its like way of life - to pretend its all great and easy, show you're doing great, so everyone will envy and feel miserable. I'm not good in cheering up, and maybe this doesn't sound good what I wrote here, but its one thing that thought I would tell you. I hope you had good time today, done something for yourself, even if it was a small thing, like having something nice to eat, or watch your favourite movie, spend time with your friend. That's what I do every year for my birthday. I don't have huge parties and to be honest for last 20 years I did not have a birthday party like most people have. During my 30th and 40th birthday I had to be somewhere else where I couldn't even celebrate. Maybe I will have opportunity to have fun on my 50th, but that's far from now
Again, Happy Birthday Noisy!
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