This is way overdue, but it finally hit me today. Here are some unorganized thoughts from me.
If you had asked me two months or so ago what I thought of SmallFry I would have told you he was one of the most annoying and intolerable people on the forums. After hearing about his death, my only thoughts toward him were numb. Now I've never realized what people were talking about when they say they felt "numb" towards something, and I still can't describe it, but it really is one of the worst feeling you can have about something, because once you move past numb, you realize how selfish it is to have "not cared" for that much time about something that important. Now I didn't know him that well at all, however there were a few times when I was a relatively new member that him and I would spend ah hour or two PMing each other in IRC about things happening in life. Him and I had some pretty deep conversations about friendship, school, and just general topics. He was quite the interesting child. I definitely felt somewhat connected to him, we both had trouble making friends in school, and were kinda the odd kid, I saw some of myself in him. However, one day I just finally got fed up with his constant spamming of the forum that I just turned a cold shoulder to him and didn't really have any kind of meaningful conversations for the last 6 months or so. I realize now that that was of course incredibly stupid and childish of me and that all SmallFry really wanted was a good friend, and I failed him on that. I'm pretty sure he had found plenty of other people to chat with in IRC though so at the time I didn't feel too bad about it. I guess it really is true what they say, you never really know what you got until it's gone.
I know this is terribly written, but I guess what I'm trying to say is, SmallFry, wherever you are, I'll miss you. Your presence may have annoyed me, but at the same time it made me happy, to see someone in your position always have something good to say, no matter how little or spammy.
Rest in Peace buddy you will be missed <3