A sincere apology to the whole of GeekHack

[MOZ]

So, yeah, I churned a ****storm today. It was more to do with things IRL than on GeekHack or IRC.

Add to it the lack of sleep and some stress. Yes, the IRC was the final spark, that set me off, and I couldn't stop, all I really needed was 10mins and a cold glass of water.

I have embarrassed myself enough, I would like to apologise to vun, dubsgalore, jdcarpe, mkawa and SmallFry in particular, and I am truly sorry GeekHack.

I will take a break now and get some much needed sleep and get back, and clean all the mess and apologise personally to each and everyone I have offended.

I would like to thank the staff of GH for tolerating me and my temper, I am really grateful.

And no, none of the GBs are cancelled, although I understand that my immaturity would have made you doubtful. If it is so, please bare with me and if you are still unsure, I can understand completely.

Night

[Techno Trousers]

You'll have some serious bridge building to do to recover from an outburst like this. I recommend you go ahead and cancel these GBs, and work on building your reputation.

[Photoelectric]

I'm sorry, but even your replies to my sincere PMs when I was checking if everything was okay were completely off.  As much as I appreciate your group buys... this was all too much for no good reason.

[esoomenona]

Nah, he'll be fine. Everyone gets a little yargarbled at times.

[lcs]

Nah, he'll be fine. Everyone gets a little yargarbled at times.

I don't know what yargarbled means, but I agree with you.

[esoomenona]

Nah, he'll be fine. Everyone gets a little yargarbled at times.

I don't know what yargarbled means, but I agree with you.

Jizzpazzled?

[alaricljs]

Man, if he got jizzpazzled he just might need psychiatric help.  Unless he's into that sort of thing.

[SpAmRaY]

Nah, he'll be fine. Everyone gets a little yargarbled at times.

I don't know what yargarbled means, but I agree with you.

Jizzpazzled?

Razzledazzled?

[demik]

Man, if he got jizzpazzled he just might need psychiatric help.  Unless he's into that sort of thing.

who is not?

[mkawa]

i prefer huehuehuehueheuhe over yargarbled. jizzpazzled sounds like a sex act honestly

[demik]

i prefer huehuehuehueheuhe over yargarbled. jizzpazzled sounds like a sex act honestly

open your mind ming!

[lcs]

Nah, he'll be fine. Everyone gets a little yargarbled at times.

I don't know what yargarbled means, but I agree with you.

Jizzpazzled?

Razzledazzled?

Razzledazzled I learned while watching Chicago!

[Michael]

i prefer huehuehuehueheuhe over yargarbled. jizzpazzled sounds like a sex act honestly

hhuehuehuehuehuheuheuheuehu

[MOZ]

I would like to heartily thank the GH staff who did not ban me, I would have banned me multiple times by now.

[lcs]

I would like to heartily thank the GH staff who did not ban me, I would have banned me multiple times by now.

Just go and have some rest, man.

[Dubsgalore]

julysicles for all

[Michael]

[CalmB4tehPwn]

I'm willing to forgive, but I'd like to know if I need to keep my thoughts about smallfry to myself in the future. Apparently I'm just a ****ing newb for being choked up scrolling through a dead man's post.

OF ****ING COURSE I'M TRYING TO BE A PART OF THIS COMMUNITY.

you guys are great. I'd be ****ing crazy not to try to fit in.

[lcs]

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[mkawa]

i prefer huehuehuehueheuhe over yargarbled. jizzpazzled sounds like a sex act honestly

open your mind ming!

don't jizzpazzle me bro

[Sent]

Glad things are back to normal...as normal as things can get around here, anyways.

[Smeagol_RP]

Thought you guys were kidding.

[lcs]

I'm willing to forgive, but I'd like to know if I need to keep my thoughts about smallfry to myself in the future. Apparently I'm just a ****ing newb for being choked up scrolling through a dead man's post.

OF ****ING COURSE I'M TRYING TO BE A PART OF THIS COMMUNITY.

you guys are great. I'd be ****ing crazy not to try to fit in.

[vun]

I'm willing to forgive, but I'd like to know if I need to keep my thoughts about smallfry to myself in the future. Apparently I'm just a ****ing newb for being choked up scrolling through a dead man's post.

OF ****ING COURSE I'M TRYING TO BE A PART OF THIS COMMUNITY.

you guys are great. I'd be ****ing crazy not to try to fit in.

Nah, you're cool. Reading the posts of someone you know has died is a bit strange even if you never knew the person well.

The problem arises when you almost act like you knew the person on a forum with several people who actually knew them, which was part of the reason this whole ****storm started.

[demik]

titty sprinkles

[Rayne]

titty sprinkles

i laughed way to hard at this

[Dubsgalore]

The problem arises when you almost act like you knew the person on a forum with several people who actually knew them, which was part of the reason this whole ****storm started.

bingo. it was uncomfortable to read and out of place

at least (i think) he's realized it

[CalmB4tehPwn]

I'm willing to forgive, but I'd like to know if I need to keep my thoughts about smallfry to myself in the future. Apparently I'm just a ****ing newb for being choked up scrolling through a dead man's post.

OF ****ING COURSE I'M TRYING TO BE A PART OF THIS COMMUNITY.

you guys are great. I'd be ****ing crazy not to try to fit in.

Nah, you're cool. Reading the posts of someone you know has died is a bit strange even if you never knew the person well.

The problem arises when you almost act like you knew the person on a forum with several people who actually knew them, which was part of the reason this whole ****storm started.

I'm not ever going to claim I knew him, or that my grief on the matter can compare, but think about this. If you've never PMed him directly, you knew him entirely from his board posts.
I'm becoming a part of this community, and I'm walking through the old posts, and I'm getting to know a man I can never get to know. I don't get closure on this, it'll only get worse the longer I'm here and the more I get to know him. I didn't have to lose him, no, but that doesn't mean I don't FEEL his loss.

[esoomenona]

titty sprinkles

Sifo's reaction to titty sprinkles:

[mkawa]

smallfry was the kind of kid that people want to get to know just from the things he said years ago. sunday gonna be hard

[esoomenona]

The problem arises when you almost act like you knew the person on a forum with several people who actually knew them, which was part of the reason this whole ****storm started.

bingo. it was uncomfortable to read and out of place

at least (i think) he's realized it

SmallFry isn't yours to keep, you know. Others, even newer members, can feel something for him.

[Michael]

The problem arises when you almost act like you knew the person on a forum with several people who actually knew them, which was part of the reason this whole ****storm started.

bingo. it was uncomfortable to read and out of place

at least (i think) he's realized it

SmallFry isn't yours to keep, you know. Others, even newer members, can feel something for him.

Going to have to agree here. Just because they didn't personally know him, doesn't mean that his story can't touch them the same way it does people that knew him.

[demik]

please don't make smallfry a "thing" that only certain GHers should know/care about.

he is a member of this community. a brother to all of us. old and new.

[MOZ]

I don't clain to have known him, or share the same grief as you, infact in some ways, I have no grief, as i didn't know him.

I was shocked yes, and I have mentioned, I would have been the same way on any other forum for any member.

However, before his demise, I came to GH, got answers and left. When mkawa created that thread, I saw the brotherhood and wanted to be a part, and in some ways maybe vun was right, I wanted to be a part as quickly as possible.

I should just calm down and take things slowly.

[Dubsgalore]

ok, never ever ever said that, or claimed that at all

it is 100% ok for people to be shocked or upset to read, who are new to the community, but when u act like you knew him and say you wish you could visit his parents, then it's a bit much

but when he continues on and on and goes overboard, and actually bums people out in the IRC because they are seeing his name so much, it just seems a bit much

[Glod]

geekhack feels strange today

[CalmB4tehPwn]

ok, never ever ever said that, or claimed that at all

it is 100% ok for people to be shocked or upset to read, who are new to the community, but when u act like you knew him and say you wish you could visit his parents, then it's a bit much

but when he continues on and on and goes overboard, and actually bums people out in the IRC because they are seeing his name so much, it just seems a bit much

You're right, and I'll scale it back, or reply to existing threads instead of creating new ones.
I wish I could be there at Keycon with you guys, and let his parents know that he's touched people who he never even knew.

Let them know for me?

[vun]

To clear things up; my comment was simply based on that the posts I'd seen from moz so far seemed to be a bit too eager to be part of it, kinda like someone you barely know, or don't know at all, call you by a nickname only your closest friends use and then start pretending to be part of the in-jokes they have no part in. It's the same sort of feeling.

I'm not saying moz did anything wrong, I was simply stating how I felt, which doesn't really matter since I rarely stick my head outside the input devices subforum. They weren't strong feelings either, I just saw dubs bring it up and I commented. I was fairly indifferent before the massive ****splosion, and now I'm left on the fence again.

So for the record; moz, I never said you couldn't be part of the community or that you didn't belong here, which isn't for me to decide anyways.

[MOZ]

I understand the sentiment now, my brain wasn't right then.

Had it been, I would have replied to you in the IRC, "And who are you sir to tell me if I should have the SF Keychains or not?"

Lets leave it and chillout

[Dubsgalore]

i don't understand where these false accusations are coming from either....

go back and read the irc logs, or read the forum posts, never attacked mohit or never claimed smallfry was 'mine'

don't turn the gun on the wrong people

[mkawa]

I wish I could be there at Keycon with you guys, and let his parents know that he's touched people who he never even knew.

Let them know for me?

yes, absolutely.

[demik]

geekhack feels strange today

would you say... it feels some type of way?

sorry moose, i had to.

[esoomenona]

geekhack feels strange today

would you say... it feels some type of way?

sorry moose, i had to.

Damn, I can't believe I missed that one.

[mkawa]

please don't make smallfry a "thing" that only certain GHers should know/care about.

he is a member of this community. a brother to all of us. old and new.

well said demik

[demik]

i got you bro, i got you

[SpAmRaY]

i got you bro, i got you

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Where did you get that pic of TJ in his red and whites?

[thebeargentile]

Not trying to stick my nose into an issue that I wasn't involved in, but this post has allowed me to put into words some things I've been feeling that I really haven't had a place to say before...

I've been a lurker on these boards for almost two years, a registered member for over a year.  While I am constantly browsing the forum, I don't tend to be too vocal, though I appreciate the community and members, Geekhack is part of my daily life.

The thing about smallfry, to me at least, was that he had a remarkable ability to make everyone feel a part of the geekhack family.  Whether you were a veteran or noob, or just a lurker like myself, his charisma and passion and genuine kindness shone through his posts, and really made me feel involved and invested in this community.

I had several life events come up lately that resulted in my not visiting Geekhack for a few months, and when I returned and saw that smallfry had passed, it felt like I had been kicked in the stomach.  No, I didn't know him personally.  No, I didn't interact with him to anywhere near the degree that so many of you all have.  But what I knew is that a smart, kind, passionate young man who's conversations always made me feel welcome, had had his life tragically cut short, and that I would no longer get to share in his spirited and insightful posts.

Everyone handles things differently, and I'm sure that it is strange for new users to come to the community not knowing smallfry, yet seeing the massive footprint that he left.  I'm sure that this will be an issue going forward for quite some time, since smallfry did have such a huge impact on this community.  Though I will not pretend to have had a close relationship with him, or even have know him personally, I can say with utter confidence that the last thing that he would want would be for his memory to be divisive to the community.  Everyone handles losses differently, and I can see how it would be hard for those who knew him well to see "strangers" touching his memory, but I think the most honoring thing that the community can do is to continue in his legacy of inclusiveness and passion, and make sure that all members are left without question of what a remarkable person he was.

I'm sorry if my comments are out of place, I just needed to get this off my chest. 

[bueller]

Everyone handles things differently, and I'm sure that it is strange for new users to come to the community not knowing smallfry, yet seeing the massive footprint that he left.

Actually I think this articulates it perfectly, rarely a day goes by that I don't happen across one of his old posts.

[mkawa]

Not trying to stick my nose into an issue that I wan't involved in, but this post has allowed me to put into words some things I've been feeling that I really haven't had a place to say before...

I've been a lurker on these boards for almost two years, a registered member for over a year.  While I am constantly browsing the forum, I don't tend to be too vocal, though I appreciate the community and members, Geekhack is part of my daily life.

The thing about smallfry, to me at least, was that he had a remarkable ability to make everyone feel a part of the geekhack family.  Whether you were a veteran or noob, or just a lurker like myself, his charisma and passion and genuine kindness shone through his posts, and really made me feel involved and invested in this community.

I had several life events come up lately that resulted in my not visiting Geekhack for a few months, and when I returned and saw that smallfry had passed, it felt like I had been kicked in the stomach.  No, I didn't know him personally.  No, I didn't interact with him to anywhere near the degree that so many of you all have.  But what I knew is that a smart, kind, passionate young man who's conversations always made me feel welcome, had had his life tragically cut short, and that I would no longer get to share in his spirited and insightful posts.

Everyone handles things differently, and I'm sure that it is strange for new users to come to the community not knowing smallfry, yet seeing the massive footprint that he left.  I'm sure that this will be an issue going forward for quite some time, since smallfry did have such a huge impact on this community.  Though I will not pretend to have had a close relationship with him, or even have know him personally, I can say with utter confidence that the last thing that he would want would be for him memory to be divisive to the community.  Everyone handles losses differently, and I can see how it would be hard for those who knew him well to see "strangers" touching his memory, but I think the most honoring this that the community can do is continue in his legacy of inclusiveness and passion, and make sure that all members are left without question of what a remarkable person he was.

I'm sorry if my comments are out of place, I just needed to get this off my chest. 

thank you for sharing this. i feel like it articulates many of the feelings on both sides extremely well.

[bueller]

And to OP. Your apology is appreciated but personally I will be sitting out your first couple of groups buys after this outburst, nothing personal but I want to see how they're handled before I commit to anything.