How old are you?
34. Had to consult an online age checker to be sure but I got my age wrong at 23ish while getting ID'd for alcohol so that's nothing new. It also said I'm 414 months old which means I've now been ill with this for over 1% of my life. Nice.
@suicidal_orange: Do you know exactly which tests have been done?
Not really. They did a blood test to check for infection and recently they were looking for gluten related antibodies (or whatever gets raised
sometimes if you have a problem with gluten) and also "I usually forget about pancreas... Oh no, I did tick it" so that sounds like blood sugar. They've had 6 vials of blood so I guess there are three more tests, though possibly they're repeats.
If there is one thing I've learned about doctors, is that you can't rely on them. You have to educate yourself and take responsibility for your health yourself.
Learn which tests need to be done, and pressure/manipulate your doctors to get them done!
Also, always read the fine print on the what side-effects the drugs you take have.
The problem with this is defining the problem. Let's try and make a table (what a stupid idea - these are a nightmare!)
Symptom | Lots of blood in urine along with sharp pain | "Cure" | Antibiotics A | |
Possible cause (reason to doubt it) | Kidney stone (didn't feel it until it was nearly out, none visible on ultrasound) | UTI (supposed to feel ill, I felt great) | ?? |
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Symptoms | Extreme retardation mentally (stuggled to find words, said words in wrong order, Saw no hands trying to play poker) Tiredness Loss of coordination Broken temperature sensing | |
Possible cause | ?? as above - one big problem | Side effects of antibiotics A | | |
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Symptom | Swolen knee | "Cure" | Antibiotics B |
Possible cause (reason to doubt it) | ?? as above - one big problem (Strange mix...) | Side effects of antibiotics A (doctor said knee isn't the right kind of infection) | Kneeling too much (I don't think I did) | |
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Symptom | UTI | "Cure" | Antibiotic C | |
Possible cause (reason to doubt it) | ?? as above - one big problem | ??2 - connected to initial problem but not connected to knee | Side effects of antibiotics A | Side effects of antibiotics B |
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Symptom | Ongoing mental fuzziness, mild hangover like headache | | |
Possible cause (reason to doubt it) | ?? as above - one big problem
| ??2 as above - one big problem, knee separate
| Side effects of antibiotics A, B, C, A+B, A+B+C, A+C or B+C
| Ongoing mental issues (Why now? Was on the up and physically best condition ever) |
Symptom | Stomach-ish weirdness | | |
Possible cause (reason to doubt it) | ?? as above - one big problem
| ??2 as above - one big problem, knee separate
| Side effects of antibiotics A, B, C, A+B, A+B+C, A+C or B+C (Seems unlikely months later)
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Only antibiotics A had rare-but-scary permanent side effects but they sounded a lot like the common ones, which sound quite like the symptoms of having an infection...
Also I had two days with a clear head shortly after finishing antibiotic B which is unexplained.
Now put yourself back in retard mode, where do you even begin researching?
Let me ask again: Have you checked the colour of your stool?
Have you done a "blood count" test? And in that case, what did that show?
When I suffered from anemia, my cognitive functions were seriously impaired, like what you described.
I have, it's random consistency and ranges from orange to nearly green depending on diet - as usual. I will phone the doctor on Monday and hopefully they will be willing to tell me if they've checked for anemia, if I weren't stupid I would have remembered to ask.
This sounds like the speech an AI would make near the end of its processing capacity, before it overloads.
What has caused you to reflect so much internally, are you in any physical danger due to these stutters in thought.
Feels like it too, easily done when some fool's trying to run it on a 486!
Aside from riding a bike with the handlebars not attached and with a sharp knife in my pocket pointing down my leg I think I'm safe physically, though I did nearly get hit off my bike by a big white van this week. I'm not allowing myself to drive so that helps. I know I'm crap at work and if I make a mistake it could easily cost six figures and result in me getting fired, I've made three such mistakes so far and been lucky each time. I'm so retarded I don't care enough to worry about it (the van incident or losing my job) and that in itself is worrying. The reflections are because I've always said if I'm not 95% capable and self reliant I'll kill myself and at the moment I'm not even close. The longer it goes on the more likely it feels like it will be permanent and that in time this will be "normal" and I won't know any better and then what?
Usually when I get in a reflective downward spiral I will do or buy something but I just don't have the mental capacity and buying incompatible things or breaking stuff trying to do isn't going to improve my mental state. I should be doing Christmas but having bought six cards where two are duplicates (one exactly) this just reminds me how crap I am, so I'm avoiding it. But I'm not going to get any better in time so this strategy is doomed.