I think I need to see a nutritionist and most definitely a psychiatrist; but I haven't found anyone I could really say I respect.
I was on medifast for a few months and lost a ton of weight (70ish pounds) - but also got some cavities. I can't seem to dig into myself to find that person again who was able to stick it out on 900 calories a day.
That person is gone.
Well, when people attempt large swings very quickly, it increases the possibility of equally powerful rebound actions..
This is the reason why they recommend slow-steps-down..
In my personal experience, it may never be the case that a person fully detach from deeply programmed physical responses, such as binge-eating, drugs, alcohol..
Even if relieved of for the moment, the possibility of going back to those things will always be the fall-back state.
The important action to take today, is to keep those things in the background, and start to nurture more productive habits..
What would those be, ANYTHING else that you LIKE DOING.. with the exception of drugs and alcohol, (in this case cupcakes, bacon, potato chips, icecream)