Been kinda depressed lately, not finding joy in things i used to enjoy. Just kinda down in general i guess.
When I'm feeling down I try to force myself to go out of the house. Usually that is the last thing I want to do, but I almost always feel better for it, even if it just going to grab a cup of coffee or something. Sometimes it's not that easy, but it is at least some place to start. Or maybe try some kind of activity, build a Lego set, or paint, or color - those coloring books for adults are fantastic. Art in general is a great way to "therapy" yourself.
Yeah, I went out with my wife to her works Christmas party on Friday and I enjoyed myself, but we got back home and the feelings just came back. I've been enjoying working with my hands, building my most recent keyboards has been the most relaxed i've felt in a while, but buying large amounts of board parts just to build them isnt really wallet friendly, lol.
I have been trying to find some other hobbies to entertain my self. Since I've been into vaping a lot recently, i was thinking of starting to make my own juice, it could be fun.
Yeah, this hobby can be pretty financially destructive. With the money I've spent to visualize my build concepts, I could've bought a lot of other things, or just saved it.
I love the creativity, but I feel like the hobby has a material side that displeases me somewhat. I love this community, but I do sometimes get conflicted. Where before getting into this, I was 100% happy doing work and art that originated entirely from the self, now I'm finding satisfaction in things I'm spending money on that I didn't even create (when speaking of like, straight up material and stuff). It seems cheap in comparison (though literally much more expensive).
I dunno. Things just don't feel as wholesomely satisfying as they had before I got into this community. I've even developed a mild RSI in my thumb from mechanical keyboards (definitely hope that eventually heals).
Meh.
