I ****ing hate my job. I hate the work so much, the past few weeks the very first thought that pops into my head as soon as I open my eyes in the morning is "****, I gotta do the same exact thing again today."
I hate myself, I hate the work, every single day is a struggle and there is not a damn thing I can do about it for now.
This morning while walking to work I was sort of toying with the idea of getting hit by a slow moving vehicle just so I didn't have to come in. That's how bad it is.
Hahahaha... Noisyturtle //engages EMO mode..
Calm down gentle Turtle... I think managing your dopamine levels is going to be the key here...
A common symptom of dopamine disregulation is reduced motivation towards daily life..
Instead of being able to be optimistic, to actively search for and FIND the thing you enjoy in your occupation, You loath the main stream, while clinging to this imagined/abstract/intangible possibility that there's something better..
But the problem here is, your dopamine levels are low, such that you can not workup the --Pep-- to get yourself out of Non-growth.. And so you feel frustrated..
Your affliction is chemical in nature.. I've already casually touched upon potential steps in our previous discussions.. Perhaps give it a go..