I would be ecstatic if you chose me to be the new owner of a GH60 and a beautiful acyrlic case. It would really make me happy for once. I say that because I have been suffering from severe depression and anxiety for the past 2 and a half years with only a few sunny breaks on my otherwise rainy life. I am turning 20 this March and have yet to live the life of a normal teenager. I am alone and confused.
Due to my depression, grade 12 was the hardest year of my life. Getting through school when you can barely function has got to be one of the hardest tasks I have accomplished; especially with a good average. I got into all the schools I applied for, but turned down all the acceptances due to my inability to function in the normal world.
I have no clue what I am doing with my life right now. I am absolutely lost. I have no sense of direction or any goals. I have no friends and have left my house only a handful of times over the course of the past year. Every day tasks have become impossible. Something that the average person might routinely do causes me to freak out and worry. Because of this I haven't had a real job in 3 years. Don't get me wrong, I do odd jobs here in there for family members to earn a little cash, but when I do have money, I have to spend it very cautiously and plan out my purchases. I never get to spurge on myself.
I am happy maybe a few hours a week. If anyone on this forum has suffered from depression, you will understand what I mean. There is this overwhelming sense of loneliness and upset that stays with me and clouds my mind all day long.
I appreciate the little things in life; little things that can bring me joy and lift my sadness. Recently, one of those things has been... you guys guessed it.. mechanical keyboards! Although that may sound silly to any "normal" teenager, to me, and the rest of us Geekhackers it is not. I have been looking for a 60% for quite some time, so if you do happen to gift me with the GH60, I would be the happiest guy on the planet. Making me happy is not something lot of people have the power to do, and believe me, I don't take it for granted when someone does. I greatly appreciate it and hold moments like that close to my heart. I would never forget it.
Although even such a nice gift would not cure my depression, it would bring me an immeasurable amount of joy this holiday season and help me through such a rough period in my life - all because of the sheer selflessness of a kind individual.
**This is not meant to be a sob story. I am just telling my story for what it is. This is real life for me and many other people in this world, and I'm sure there are more people who suffer on this very forum. I don't want people to feel sorry for me, I just want people to realize that stuff like this is happening all around them, even to their fellow forum members. I debated PMing this to Glissant but decided against it. This is actually the first time I have ever posted anything like this in public, and it was extremely hard for me to do. To be honest, it feels really relieving. In the short time I have been here I have gotten a very warm sense of community from this site which is why I decided to share. Please prove to me that I made the right choice. Thanks everyone.
Edit: Wording.